Frustration

 

I have been having a little bit of a rough time. I am trying to focus and what to do with my life. I should be working and being happier. I am a newlywed after all. But finding work is turning out to be harder than I thought. I had a drawback late last night and early this morning. I fell back into thinking the darkest of the dark thoughts. That maybe the world does not need me anymore. That is would be better off without me here anymore. I was sitting on the loveseat at 3am and stayed there until almost 6am with my dagger in my hand. I had gone for a walk first that is why it was with me. It is a small double-edged blade. I know that suicide is not the answer and I have been there before. But the darkness of my soul has come back to the surface. I worked my way through it and found the pain I was feeling to put the blade back into the sheath and go to bed and get ready to sleep. The pain and frustration had me in tears most the time. The chills running up my spine like I was not alone. Even if in that moment I felt nothing but alone. I am not sure what pulled me back this morning but something did. I am not sure if I have  purpose in this world but something wanted me to stay here more than the force that wanted me to leave. I am doing my best to get back on track and not force myself to the afterlife just yet. I hope this helps someone else who has been there. Know that you are not alone. Talk to someone. Express yourself in a more positive way. I am going to go work on my writing. That is what keeps me ground. I know this will not be the last time this happens to me. but I am fighting to keep my control.

 

 

Love always

me.

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Filthy Doctor- Book Review

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I got this book as an ARC for my honest opinion and review. I have read a few of Amy’s books. Not one quite like this one. It have not read many with doctors in it. I got the impression this is a second chance romance. It was like they were rekindling and old flame. It was a good read. Do they get there HEA or does the secret he kept from her come between them? You will have to read it for yourself to find out.

 

 

 

 

 

Midnight Magic- Book Review

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I got this as an ARC for my honest opinion and review. It was a great series of Novellas. Well worth the read. I can’t wait to read more by some of these authors. I love getting box sets. Opens my eyes to new authors all the time. I really enjoyed Jane Hinchey’s Shadow Shifter. Several of the stories were very will written.

Men of the House- Release Day Synopsis

Synopsis

I never hold back. Unless I’m about to pull out.

Sure, I used to get along with Colt when I married his mother. But when she passed away it started a rocky relationship for us. Then I got married again.

That’s when a little brat entered the picture.

Walking around the house in clothes too small for her.
Tempting me.
Teasing him.
Making us both have forbidden thoughts.

We’ll have her separately. But can she handle us together?

There’s a lot of forces trying to make sure that we fail. But through it all, there’s a tantalizing possibility that comes into the picture.
It might change our lives forever.
If it doesn’t tear us apart first.

Come raise your temperature with this exciting new dark ménage romance – filled with brooding bad boy alpha males and the one woman who can tame them! No cliffhangers, but it’s a scorcher with super-steamy scenes of MF, MM, MFM and MMF. Happily Ever After? You know it, babe. #abbyangel